The Beginning

Today as I write this I am sitting here in my chair at work. I have Subway to my left along with lemonade and Lays BBQ chips. So much for my idea of losing weight...
Last week Weight Watchers came to work. (Yeah, they actually employ people to come to YOUR place of employment to tell you how you need to change. Then once the hour is over, it's back to eating burriots and brownies baby.) It was quite interesting sitting in our conference room watching all sorts of people walk in with this shameful look on their face. Ah, get over it. No one's judging you...trust me. We judge ourselves all the time and that's already enough work for the lot of us.
After realizing that I've already consumed more than 1000 calories with my Subway feast...I've decided to toss the rest away. Can you hear the crumpling of the thin paper they use to wrap your sandwich? (Question: Who decided that I wanted my sandwich wrapped like that, sometimes it's quite loud if someone's trying to watch TV....here you are crumpling and making noise with your Subway wrappings...sweet.) The Subway is gone...at least from my desk. The last quarter of the sandwich now resides in my trash can that someone cleans out every night for me...
Well, it's a Monday. That means that I have four more days on top of today...just sitting here in front of this computer dulling my mind into a deep state of numbness. I have a great job...but it's categorized into a "great job" by those that don't have my job.
If I could do anything I would open up a "Made in Montana" store. A store where all sorts of creative people from all over the community can come and consign their products in my store to sell them to tourists and people who are proud of our community and state. I think it'd be a smashing idea (It's copywrited by the way...don't try to steal my idea asshole...) and I know that with my creative abilities, it has the possibilty of turning into something worth mine and the communities time.
Enough for now...I have to actually work. Been putting a reconciliation deal off for about a week now and the paranoia and guilt are beginning to coarse through my veins. Ta-ta for now!